{"id":12,"date":"2004-01-31T20:58:22","date_gmt":"2004-02-01T03:58:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/blog\/?p=10"},"modified":"2004-01-31T20:58:22","modified_gmt":"2004-02-01T03:58:22","slug":"blogstudio-transfer-07","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/2004\/01\/31\/blogstudio-transfer-07\/","title":{"rendered":"A beautiful melancholy"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"storycontent\">\n<p>I would not want to run a mile with a thousand spectators watching me intently, and I don&rsquo;t know why. I think I could probably make it a mile without collapsing, if I jogged it, at least. It&rsquo;s not a soul-bearing act, but I&rsquo;d prefer to have a thousand people watch me write, or read, or just sit and stare at a wall. I&rsquo;d rather give a speech in french in front of a thousand french people, I think. Scary &hellip;.<\/p>\n<p>Today has been a bit melancholy, a day where I just want to relax, and feel like the world is judging me for my inaction. I revere stillness as much as action, silence as much as speech, meditation as much as thought. It&rsquo;s often in my silence that the world makes me feel alone.<\/p>\n<p>It&rsquo;s a beautiful melancholy. Don&rsquo;t begrudge me it.<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I would not want to run a mile with a thousand spectators watching me intently, and I don&rsquo;t know why. I think I could probably make it a mile without collapsing, if I jogged it, at least. It&rsquo;s not a soul-bearing act, but I&rsquo;d prefer to have a thousand people watch me write, or read, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}