{"id":38,"date":"2004-07-03T19:31:37","date_gmt":"2004-07-04T02:31:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/blog\/?p=36"},"modified":"2004-07-03T19:31:37","modified_gmt":"2004-07-04T02:31:37","slug":"up-too-late","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/2004\/07\/03\/up-too-late\/","title":{"rendered":"Up too late \u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"storycontent\">\n<p>It&rsquo;s not that late, yet, but my brain feels fried by: time off, future considerations, watching &ldquo;24&Prime; entirely too much, and general uncertainty. It&rsquo;s hard to pack up your life and move, but perhaps it&rsquo;s even harder still just to consider it. The doing is easier than the thinking about. So, for now, I&rsquo;ll stop thinking about it.<\/p>\n<p>Eyes wary, like I was a wolf wandered in from the wilderness, unpredictable. I&rsquo;m fairly calm, simple; I don&rsquo;t feel much like a wolf at all until those eyes are on me. Still, I wonder how much of it is all in my head. I wonder how my eyes portray my vision, and I&rsquo;m not even sure of what it is <strong>I<\/strong> see. That&rsquo;s all a bit vague, I realize, but my brain is numb tonight &#8211; a pulsating, electric cotton-ball; synapses not firing, but perhaps &#8211; letting off the occasional back-fire.<\/p>\n<p>I told Emily that I think she made the right decision:<br \/> that we need time and the chance to change,<br \/> and to become the people we yearn to be.<br \/> I still don&rsquo;t know how our relationship<br \/> slowed this down.  But I think she may be right.<br \/> From my perspective, it was not the only decision.<br \/> It is, however, the decision that has been made.<br \/> And I do, I really do, think it was one of the right ones.<\/p>\n<p>All that&rsquo;s left: take advantage &#8211;<br \/> all things in life present an opportunity.<br \/> <em>Carpe Diem<\/em> you know,<br \/> and all that.<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&rsquo;s not that late, yet, but my brain feels fried by: time off, future considerations, watching &ldquo;24&Prime; entirely too much, and general uncertainty. It&rsquo;s hard to pack up your life and move, but perhaps it&rsquo;s even harder still just to consider it. The doing is easier than the thinking about. So, for now, I&rsquo;ll stop [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12,17],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=38"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=38"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=38"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ahniwa.com\/old\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=38"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}