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Under the weather, over the moon.

There was a lot of coughing and sneezing and sniffling and the like among my classmates last week, so that by the time the weekend rolled around I wiped my brow and let out a brief but heartfelt sigh of relief that I had escaped infection. Of course by the time Saturday night arrived I was congested and achey. I’m surviving well enough, and yesterday afternoon I went to the pharmacy and picked myself up some vitamin C, some garlic pills, some peppermint tea and some calcium caramels. Combined with my daily vitamins, I’m expecting some sort of miracle recovery. I’ve never been very good about taking vitamins on a regular basis. On average, I’d take my daily vitamins weekly, and other supplements at most a few times a year. One thing I’ve been working on as I’ve been reinventing myself in terms of habits and daily practices is to eat at home more (which has been going amazingly well), and to be healthier in my diet, which includes taking vitamins.

In short, so far no dramatic sense of well-being, but I remain hopeful.

That covers under the weather. As for the other, I’m over the moon because tomorrow morning I set off for Parsippany, New Jersey to see my darling Abigail for a few brief and much-needed days. Her cousin’s getting married, and close enough to me that it made sense for me to drive down. I mean, after spending a week moving from Washington to Montreal, what’s a 7-hour drive? Peanuts, that’s what.

Classes continue to go well, and today and tomorrow is the voting for the McGill Library and Information Studies Student Association (MLISSA) executive team. I’m running for VP against two other people, so wish me luck!

In other exciting news, I have a fancy desk and chair in my apartment now, delivered from Ikea, so I expect both my work and blog productivity to increase. I’m so far behind on my bloglines that it’s not even funny, but I’m hoping to at least start reading my online info sources again, so that I may have exciting and pertinent things to share. Until then, toodles!

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Sunny with a chance of winter

McGill GSLIS

Today I can feel the first gusts of winter, flush with cold, though I’m sure that it’s a meager herald of the coming ice age. I’m a rain-baby, you see, born and having lived most of my life in the Pacific Northwest, I know fancy words like “rainshadow” and I’m used to more green than white, even in the winter. Granted I spent quite a bit of my youth in eastern Washington, where there is a real winter, including temperates well below zero and snow up to your belly-button, at times. But it’s been awhile since then and from what I’ve been told the winter here will be make eastern Washington seem a tropical paradise. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to it.

Tomorrow marks the end of my first two weeks of classes. They’ve been going well so far. My classmates are – so far in my experience without exception – intelligent and interesting people, and though I wouldn’t say that I’ve made any “fast friends”, I’ve made some nice connections and shared some good conversations and conspiratorial smiles. We’re all in this together, after all, for the next two years, which means plenty of time to conspire, work, and share this experience called grad school.

The GLIS at McGill is modeled to resemble real-life work in a lot of ways. It’s considered a professional degree, so the studies rest much more on the practical than the theoretical, which I think is reasonable and very useful. The graded work in most of my classes is based almost entirely on group projects. Much as a real work environment, you have a project, people to work with (or you work on your own), and a completion date. Much as a real work environment, you generally have multiple ongoing projects at the same time, and you have to schedule the projects around other aspects of the job, in this case lectures and labs (which one could equate at work to time at the reference desk, or cataloguing, or other daily tasks). This is a good model for me because even though I’ve gotten much better at working in groups over the last couple years than I used to be, I consider it an essential part of effective library practice and it remains an area where I feel like I could still grow and learn. Working with people is always the most difficult, and most rewarding, part of the job.

I have some exams as well, and term tests, and individual projects to work on. I have plenty to work on, indeed. I’m not too stressed. Yet. Give me a couple weeks.

I’m working on creating a bibliographic database with a partner in a program called InMagic. We create fields – author, title, keywords, etc – decide how we want these fields to be searchable – term search, word search, both, or neither – and then enter records using the field information. We also have to identify our purpose and audience, and pick a subject, which for us is French Poetry. So far it’s been the most daunting of the projects assigned, though hopefully once we put some elbow grease into it then it won’t seem so insurmountable. For the moment, I’m just having trouble wrapping my brain around it.

Other projects involve creating a diagram describing how information flows within a library, which I’m working with two other people on, as well as creating original card- and MARC-format descriptive bibliographies for three books and comparing my records to records for the same books entered in other libraries. Like I said, I’m quite busy.

If you haven’t yet, be sure to check out my Flickr photos (I added some new ones on Sunday and now there is a link over to the right), and check back here when you can. I’m going to make an effort, now that my life here in Montreal is solidly underway, to be more bloggerish. No, really!

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In case you were worried, I’m still alive.

My thoughts and condolences go out to the victims of yesterday’s attack. I’ve spent the past hour or so reading Gill’s online journal and looking at his pictures. I really don’t understand what drives a person to such acts of violence, but then, I don’t think I’m capable of any form of actual violence, on even the smallest level. I wish that people realized that there are other options and other ways to be. I wish we could always show each other kindness and compassion. I wish that we would respond to … well, President Clinton was quoted by Sarah Vowell in her essay Ike was a handsome man, and perhaps he said it best (at that time at the Oklahoma City bombing memorial service):

When there is talk of hatred, let us stand up and talk against it. When there is talk of violence, let us stand up and talk against it. In the face of death let us honor life.

I’m avoiding linking to articles about it. The news is too sad as it is, and certainly easy enough to find and even hard to avoid. As for me, I’m fine, alive, and not afraid. I’m just so sad that things like this happen to people, both the victims and the shooter. Why must it come to this? It’s a question with no good answer.

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Montréal, Mon Amour: Part One

I left Burlington, VT after a couple days stay with my friend Tim and headed north into Quebec early on Thursday, August 31st.  The drive was fairly short, as I had been told it would be, and I had no troubles at the border.  They looked quizzical regarding my temporary plates, since I own a new car, and the customs agent scratched his head slightly as he tried to pierce the veil of my packing in order to ascertain the actual contents sequestered deep within the dark chasms and carpeted crevices of my car's interior.  Suffice it to say that I was not able to use my rear-view mirror during my journey across the country, and that the car rode very, very low over the back wheel, as one can see here.

Upon entering Quebec, the interstate became more rural, and before long I was driving through fields of corn at a leisurely 50 kph.  Kind of like driving through  Wisconsin, only in Wisconsin the corn moved much faster.  Wisconsin corn would beat Quebec corn in a race every time, I wager.  The signs, of course, were in French where they weren't bilingual (which most of them weren't), and so I spent the drive proudly reciting signs out loud to myself, happy that, with sometimes a small amount of reflection, I knew what they meant.  "Maïze Sucré", for example, actually means that they are selling sweet corn and not that they are trying to lure tourist rubes into any unsolvable labyrinths.  

As you might expect after so much anticipation, consternation, and aggravation surrounding moving to Montreal, to actually drive into the city was a landmark event.  I had managed not to get lost so far on my trip – excluding my brief, circular tour near Toledo, OH as I searched for the Super 8 – and gave myself a pat on the back for a trip well done.  Driving into Montreal was like opening to a new chapter in the checked-out library book that was my life.  My first impression was that the city was big, that I yet had a chance to get myself horribly lost, and that at least the architecture was pretty.  I managed not to get lost, despite a great deal of construction that led me on a merry detour and made a halfhour trip through downtown take at least an hour and a half.  Finally I parked in front of my apartment building, stretched my legs, and intrepidly strode inside to claim the keys to the small 1 and 1/2 that would likely serve as my castle for the next two years.  Much to my chagrin, my apartment was being retiled and was unlivable until the next day.  Happilly, upon my confession that I had not another place to stay the night, my kind apartment manager offered me the key to an empty fourth floor apartment until the next day.  I did my best to be more heartened by his kindness than frustrated by the fact that I would have to put off unpacking, and walked out into the city to do important things (as one does).

Following the apartment manager's advice, I followed Saint Laurent south for a short time until I found the Canada Trust Bank.  I had already spent $80 wiring money to this bank, so I figured, at the least, they owed me a checking account.  Setting up my account was easy and speedy.  The gentleman who helped me, Pierre-Luc, was Francophone though he spoke English well, and he was very friendly.  Approximately thirty minutes after entering the bank, I left with a new account and debit card, and decided to continue south on Saint Laurent to see if things would continue to go so fortuitously.  In nearly no time, I spotted the Telus store across the street – which is where I had decided to get a call phone plan after a great deal of research during my stay in Burlington – and an hour later I walked out with my student plan (100 minutes long distance, including into the US, and unlimited incoming calls from anywhere!) and my fancy new phone.  The best part was that the phone came activated and about half-charged, so it was ready to use immediately.  I called Abby at work and bragged about my productivity, for which she was properly appreciative, and then went back out into the vast, vast city to explore, my productive phase at an end (being that it was now after 5 pm), and my curiosity now ready to take over.

My first exploratory excursion covered, exclusively, the length of Rue Saint Laurent.  Saint Laurent is quite long and definately thriving, packed with bars that are packed with people that are packed with booze, which in concert with the many clubs and restaurants that line the street, makes for a caterwauling sort of affair that remains yet alluring through its vibrant variety of offerings.  I kept my curiosity at street level, feeling too overwhelmed to venture into a maelstrom of drunk bodies, and by the time I got back to my night's lodging it was nearly midnight and I had walked what I suspect was nearly a total of ten miles, half of it uphill – okay, so up a gentle, barely noticable incline.  Feeling accomplished, if exhausted, I liberated the mysteriously present Ikea mattress from its resting place against the wall, layed out my pillow, spread my quilt, smoked a Canadian cigarette, and proceeded to sleep like a giant, syrupy maple log.

To be continued … 

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Flickr Powr!

Hy hy, I'v got m som Flickr powr going on!  That includs picturs from my trip across th country!  Chck 'm out, and b sur to chck back for updats.

Pics from th Montral trip

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Keep on truckin’

Dear friends,

My bloggish silence is due to the fact that I have been laboriously moving, by automobile, across the country.  I left Tuesday and arrived in Oberlin, OH yesterday afternoon for a short reprieve.  The final destination is, of course, Montreal, and I will probably arrive on Friday after hanging out with Tim in Vermont.

Rest assured that I'll be sharing my adventures with you once I've landed, that I've taken some fun pictures of my travels as well, and that I'm even considering making a small, amateur music video, if I can find the time.  Does anyone know a nice, free program I could use to edit together some video footage and throw music behind it?  If so, do tell!

'Til then, love and truckstops.

Ahniwa 

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Indicitive.

It's indicitive of our relationship, I think, that I make sure to read Penny Arcade before I meet Theo for lunch.  Plus, I'm still waiting for them to announce their special edition release of Bacon Robots.  Waiting anxiously.

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Comme les Quebecois

Susann from McGill's GSLIS called yesterday about some funding they found for me.  I called her back this morning, and in the interim dreamed that perhaps they had seen my library experience and wanted me to do some sort of work study bit in the library there, since I was obviously so well-qualified.  It's not work, sadly, but it is an international tuition waiver, which means that, for my first term at least, I'll be paying Quebec tuition rates instead of international rates.  She told me that it's a $3500 difference for the term, and I'm definately not gonna quibble about that.  I do wish more people would just call me up, out of the blue, and offer me money, though.  It's a disappointingly rare occurence.

I'm getting more revved up, and more scared, about the impending departure.  In the meantime, I've tried to make the most of being where I am and particularly in taking advantage of the people I love who are nearby.  I went to Friday Harbor over the Fourth of July to see Cree and Benj and Gypsy, and to meet Nomi and Anne and Renee and little Aye-la.  It was unaccountably good to see these, my friends, my best friends, of gradeschool through highschool and beyond, doing well, living happily, in good relationships and making healthy choices.  All of them went through rough patches, during which I didn't speak with them much if at all.  We all have to go through things on our own sometimes, and nothing I could have done would have helped, I think.  It's great to have them back, though, even if I am leaving.

This past weekend I went to Port Townsend, where I was born and where my mom lives still.  It was a little hectic but a lot of fun in a house packed with my mom, Abby and myself, Coyote and Paul, and even Kas and Lavinia.  Kas is another best friend from highschool, my acting buddy, and has been living in Holland with his musician wife.  Last time I saw him was four years ago when I graduated from Evergreen, and our visits always seem to be for too brief a time.  Brief or no, at a visit every four years, I'll take what I can get.  Seeing my sister and mom is always nice, of course, and being in Port Townsend is ever-relaxing, even when the time spent is busy and occupied.  Abby got along well with everyone, and vice versa, which is nice since I imagine her being in the picture for a long, long time.  I wasn't worried, but it's still nice when these little details work themselves out.  

She'll meet my dad this weekend, which should be interesting.  I'm sure they'll get along, even if my dad's a little strange.  Still, I'm a lot strange, and she seems to like me okay, so that shouldn't be too much of an issue.  I've yet to meet her parents, though I imagine I will before I head east.  So far, she's been a gem about meeting my family, and I'd be lying if I didn't admit to being a little nervous about meeting hers.  It's not that I've heard horror stories, or have any reason to be concerned, except she's been so good and my family likes her enough that I want to be able to return the favor.

August 15th.  Now less than two weeks away.  Sweet zombie jesus … 

… please keep my ailing sanity in your prayers as I get ready to leave behind the city and friends and woman that I love to pursue some silly graduate school … thing.  It'll all be worth it, right? 

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Sit and spin: a laptop story

After about a month of almost painful deliberation, I finally screwed up my courage yesterday evening and bought myself a laptop.  Talking to Abby about it, I told her that the more you know about computers the more difficult it becomes to choose one.  I wanted dual-core, but I also wanted 64-bit, and I wanted at least a 5400-RPM hard drive, decent graphics, and at minimum 1GB of RAM.  I preferred something smaller than the fairly standard 15.4" screen, which tend to weigh in starting at 6.5lb, and I wanted built-in wifi with bluetooth.  Also, I didn't want to spend very much.

Easy, right? 

I spent a lot of time on Dell's website, trying to finagle a deal with coupons and instant rebates.  Even with the $750 rebate on certain Inspiron notebooks of $1999 or more (which technically meant I could get a $2000 laptop for $1250), I was unenthused about my specs.  Poking about on Newegg.com, I noticed that the Turion 64 X2 notebooks were much cheaper than I had figured they might be, but that they didn't have one that really matched my every little desire.

Long story short, with the help of NoteBookReview.com and HPshopping, I decided on a very snazzy, classy, black Compaq V3000Z, tricked out to match my exacting standards.  So what did I get?  Check these babies out:

  • AMD Turion 64 X2 Mobile TL-52 (1.60GHz/2x512KB L2 Cache)
  • 14.1" WXGA BrightView Widescreen (1280 x 800)
  • NVIDIA GeForce Go 6150
  • 2.0GB DDR2 533 SDRAM (2x1024MB)
  • 80 GB 5400 RPM Serial ATA Hard Drive
  • LightScribe Super Multi 8X DVD+/-RW w/Double Layer
  • 802.11a/b/g WLAN and BlueTooth
  • 12 Cell Lithium Ion Battery
  • 1-yr Standard Warranty
  • Dimensions: 13.15" (L) x 9.33" (W) x 1" (min H)/1.54" (max H)
  • Weight (6 cell): 5.5lb

Curious what a 1.6ghz processor might be in AMD-terms, I checked Newegg, and it appears that, were the processor single core, at least, it would be a 2800+.  That sounds nice and snappy to me, though I'm sure your mileage varies.  The only part I'm not completely tickled about is the integrated video, though evidently the Nvidia GeForce Go 6150 is the cream of integrated video cards for notebooks at the moment. A dedicated card it's not, but since there aren't any x2 notebooks available right now with dedicated graphics cards, I won't take that too personally.  Besides, it could be detrimental to my health if the notebook were able to play games too well.  Willpower and all, you understand.

Two features that have me particularly thrilled are the wifi switch on the keyboard, which allows you to easily disable your wireless capabilities, for security as well as battery-saving purposes, I would imagine.  The other one is the HP-proprietary Quickplay, which is described in the review as:

Quickplay is possibly the only software pre-installed which is worth keeping. Quickplay or QP for short is HP's take on the media center and unlike the media center QP can run without booting into windows and play DVD's, video, pictures and movies located in the shared documents folder. It is a nice tool if you watch movies or just play music on the laptop. It has a dedicated button which can launch QP from within Windows and even when the laptop is turned off. The optional remote might be worth buying as it is capable of controlling the Quickplay controls and will be useful when watching a DVD.

Compaq V3000ZThat sounds pretty damned neat, and I'm excited to try it out.

One of the main reasons I was so damned picky in choosing a notebook is that I wanted it to be (surprise) Windows Vista compatible.  Fully compatible.  Which means a 64-bit processor and the graphics power to handle Aero.  This baby should, I think, do the trick.  Now, about that Vista release date …

The only real pain about the entire situation is that it isn't estimated to be built until August 7th, and then it's being shipped 5-7 day ground.  Who can be expected to be that patient after blowing that much cash on a laptop!?  Do they think I'm some sort of saint?  Cross your fingers for me that they finish it sooner, because I want to play around with it a bit before I start heading eastward.  Also, if you like, feel free to suggest some names.  And carrying cases.  I'm in the market for both.

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Things that are happening, an update.

Quick updates on the life of the Wa (that's me).

All my ducks are in a row to go to McGill.  I got my CAQ (documentation) and my funds (loans), and I put in my notice at the two places that need it (my apartment and my job).  I've been telling people I'm leaving August 15th, which is indeed the plan.  I'm scared to death.

Part of the reason I'm scared is that I've fallen in love.  Really, really more in love than I was even a little bit prepared for, and now I have no idea what to do.  I've got some big decisions to make, and some serious conversations ahead.  And some tears to shed, I'm certain.  Love has the very strangest timing.

Theo's been talking about revitalizing La Casa, which I guess I'll believe when it happens.  He's still sitting on two scripts, and after that … well, honestly, I'd really love to get back to writing comics on a regular basis.  I've had some good ideas while we've been on hiatus.  If we do get back to it, I'd like to try a different format.  The 2×2 panel at 600×800 now seems a little too cumbersome, and I wonder why we ever chose it.  My super-secret goal is to be nominated for best new webcomic for next year's WCCA.  We've also thrown around the idea of starting a webcomics-review site.  We've been thinking about it for about a year now, and mostly because Eric doesn't update as often as he used to and Fleen is more-or-less completely uninteresting to us.

I've been playing softball over the summer, and our team has won one game out of about … ten.  We can't even maintain a perfect losing record.  We were on track to win a second game, but then the bastards came back in the bottom of the 7th and kicked our asses.  It was hell of fun, though.

Yesterday it hit 101 degrees.  That's not hell of fun at all.  That's just hell. 

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A library limerick

There once was a librarian,
who referenced as well as one can.
While helping a student,
he said it would have been prudent,
if you'd shown up with some sort of plan.

(unfortunately based on numerous true stories) 

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Demoting quiet scholarship

In a flash of intuition I decided to visit the Jack Kent Cooke Foundation website to see if they had proclaimed yet their awardees of the 2006-2007 fellowships.  I hadn't heard anything, which the realistic side of me said was probably bad news, but I usually muzzle that side of me and throw it in a dark closet (where it is, I think, quite content).  The optimist in me held out hope, as is its wont, and honestly didn't take it too poorly when it read, from the "press release" issued just today (hence a flash of intuition), that I was not awarded fantastic monies to ease my way through graduate school.  Reading on, the Foundation provided brief bios of some of the "winners", and I let out an exasperated sigh.  How was I, who had led a non-heroic life of quiet if passionate academia and subtle, local public service, how was I to compete with these "heroes" of service and scholarship?

The new Jack Kent Cooke Scholars include: 

  • Bess Greenberg was a college basketball star who played professionally in Denmark and Israel. While traveling the world as an athlete, she honed her photographic skills. She'll be attending the International Center of Photography in New York. 

  • Ted Ehnle was working in Guatemala as a Peace Corps volunteer when he found his "calling."  It was there he began teaching music to village children.  Ted will be attending Northwestern University. 

  • Natacha Chough accomplished a lot in the years since she graduated from college. She's worked with NASA in preparation for the Mars Exploration program and was a Peace Corps volunteer in Turkmenistan.  She hopes to become a NASA flight surgeon so she can enjoy her two loves – medicine and space exploration.

I mean, check out those buzzwords: "traveling the world", "college basketball star", "Peace Corps volunteer" (twice), "teaching music to village children", "NASA", "Mars Exploration Program", and "NASA flight surgeon".

I understand, certainly, that scholarships are meant to be given to outstanding scholars in their field.  I guess that I am, nonetheless, a little off-put in feeling like the Foundation is awarding some sort of glamorous scholarship heroism rather than those of us in a more perhaps salt-of-the-earth type job, if one that still has incredible educational and social consequence.  This leads me, in turn, to wonder if any of the awardees are going to graduate school to study library science.  I'd love to know, but, ignorant, I'd be willing to wager that none are.

Maybe I'm just a little bitter that libraries and librarians are an undervalued commodity in our society's educational and community landscapes, despite their incredible worth and potential.  That, and I was honestly pretty excited that they might just up and give me $30k a year, both years, to get my master's degree.  Can't blame a guy for a little disappointment there.  I always felt I could use a few more loans, anyway …. 

I would, though, sincerely like to congratulate the seventy-seven recipients of the Fellowship.  Way to be, and good luck with your space exploration medicinal music-teaching photography peace corps type stuff.  Me, I'd rather be a librarian.  Even a poor one.

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Devil got my woman

Saturdays are my long day at work when there isn’t actually a whole lot of “work” to do. My charge is to man the reference desk. I understand the importance of being available, but I’m seldom called upon to actually offer any assistance. Any given Saturday is slow, and over the summer especially so. On the upside, I get to listen to internet radio in one ear since the library is so quiet. Today I’ve asked Pandora to create a Skip James station, and gotten songs from Frank Stokes, Leadbelly, Charlie Patton, and two songs from Skip himself. It’s the perfect music as I watch the clouds outside create an early dusk and threaten rain. I wonder at my preference for mellow, heart-broken music.
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Passing time as I wait for time to pass.

Some afternoons just drag on, as if to spite a person. I don’t feel like I write well anymore, and it bugs me a little bit. On the other hand, i realize that I don’t really practice very often, so I should just shut my damn yapper and get some serious pen-time going on if I want to feel better about myself. I wrote well once, I think. My oeuvre is well liked among certain literary circles.

I freaked out a bit this past Monday about school and Montreal. I read at first that getting my student permit would take 6-12 months from application, and I panicked. Finally I found the fine print that stated that as an international student from the United States there was actually NO wait time involved, and that I could just get my student permit at my point of entry. What I do have to do is get my CAQ (quack backwards: reminds me of a bad joke. What do you call a duck that flies upside down? A quack-up!), which is something like Certification d’acceptance des etudes a Quebec, or something. The CAQ takes 4-6 weeks, which is certainly manageable, but it also requires proof of funds, not only to pay for the entire first year, but to assure them of being able to pay the second and subsequent years as well (should there be any). So, I got stressed out again, until I heard from the financial aid office at McGill that I should have already received or will at least receive soon a letter of award for the sum of $18,500 in loans. While I’d obviously prefer not to take out that much in loans, at the least it will assure my CAQ eligability while I wait for less soulsucking sources of funding to avail themselves upon my wallet. I should hear about ALA scholarships soon, though not about the big, supercool fellowship until mid-July.

I’m giving serious, very serious and honest-to-goodness no-holds-barred thought to selling my car and flying to Montreal. I would not own a car. It would be the first period of my not owning a car since before I turned 16. Over ten years. It’s a frightening and liberating concept. Montreal does have a good transportation system, and if I live close enough to campus, which is the goal, I think that I’d much prefer to walk everywhere anyway. Among other things, it will be cheaper, and the way things are looking I will most certainly be your quintessential dirt-broke grad student who needs every penny. Obviously I’ll lose a little outward mobility, i.e. it’ll be tough to visit folks like Tim who would be a relatively short drive away otherwise. I did think that maybe I would buy a motorcycle for weekend excursions, but I can come to that when I come to that.

In an effort to feel like more of a writer, today I decided I would create new idioms for the english language. Here is my first attempt. If you like it, please spread it around and say things like, “Wow, that Ahniwa fellow sure is a heck of a guy, did you hear this thing he made up?” and so on.

The idiom expresses an attempt made by someone to do the impossible, to bend a person or thing, which is impressively stubborn, around to your point of view. Furthermore, it implies a negative consequence for even making the attempt, such that by even trying to argue the point you are turning the person or object against you.

The expression itself is: trying to milk a lemon; or, milking lemons. And variations thereof.

Example: Sergei tried to impress upon Anna the efficacy of the Bush regime. The more he pushed, the angrier Anna got, until finally she threw him down a well. Years later, his friend Ajax came by to say, “That’s what you get for trying to milk a lemon.” Sergei had at that time, one might surmise, already been eaten by rats, and could not appreciate his friend’s advice.

Tee hee. Morbid, I suppose. My apologies. Please, go now, and have great weekends, and above all, don’t milk any lemons around any wells. Those rats are already overfed. Thank you.

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absinthe makes the heart grow fonder

I found out via email this morning that Emily is getting married. I’m not sure why the news affected me as much as it has, but my stomach immediately tightened up. I decided to take a half-day off work. I’ll go home and relax, drink wine and watch the rain fall.

Every time I’ve thought about her in the last two years I’ve had this same feeling.

Anger. Regret. Confusion. Longing.

I don’t think of myself as someone who lives in the past. Perhaps packing up my car and moving 3000 miles away wasn’t as good a closure as I thought it would be. I still think it was the only thing I could do at the time that made any sense.

Perhaps I’m just bitter. Of the two relationships I’ve fully committed myself to as an adult, one ripped me apart in France and the other has, one way or another, been quietly gnawing at me now for nearly two years. I don’t know why I haven’t just let go and moved on. I’ve tried and it hasn’t worked, and I don’t know why that is either.

Sometimes trying to be self-aware is such a nuisance. And yet I remain a romantic, despite myself.

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i <3 snails

It was one of those things where you see something for the first time, and then all of a sudden, it appears to be everywhere.  And the problem was that I had no idea where it had come from.  Who had created it?

It really wasn’t too incredibly tough to track down, but I fancy myself quite the sleuth all the same.

From a fansite, collecting them, I present Pon and Zi, by Jeff Thomas.  It is quite charming.
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The Continued Adventures of Fox and Wa

The obsolescence of my broken car part seems to end in Colorado, where it has been found and requested.  For $50, no less.  I’m a little irate that the absence of a $50 part has the possibility of making my car essentially worthless (and certainly less useful), but right now much more happy that it may soon be fixed.  Now I just get to wait and see if it’s actually the RIGHT part (no reason it wouldn’t be except that I’m paranoid at this point), and start the struggle now over whether I’ll continue to ride my bike to work when there is an easier and more convenient alternative.  The noble side of me wants to ride and get fit, but the practical side of me is a sore loser with a mean left hook, so we’ll see who comes out on top.

At the least, I’ve really started to take a closer look at my dependence on my car, and I’d like to lessen it a great deal.  Gas prices aside (and honestly they don’t bother me that much), driving a car is an expensive habit!

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Monkeyshine

Dear Science,

Thank you for confirming for me that somewhere in the world, right now, there is probably a monkey getting drunk. It means a lot to me.

Warm regards,

Ahniwa

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La Tour d’Olympia

Saturday was the first day that I rode my bike to work, and it wasn’t that bad. It took about 30 minutes (I have no idea about mileage), and I felt pretty good about it the whole way. Granted, my legs were killing me for a bit, but after they warmed up they were fine. On the ride home my ass hurt, but after a few minutes that went away too and I was truckin’ along.

Today was the second time I rode my bike to work, and for some reason within the first 10 minutes I felt like I was going to die. I was huffing and puffing to put a puffin to shame, and that was just on the very first hill. After I got past the first series of hills and leveled out a bit, I caught some wind, but all the same the entire ride felt like much more of an effort than it did on Saturday.

I figure it’s either the increased traffic (and thus exhaust I got to breathe in; so much for being healthy), or the amount of alcohol I drank last night.

Yeah … stupid traffic.

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Some mornings I wonder…

… why the box of Irish Breakfast tea I purchased didn’t come with a bottle of whiskey.

It’s a shame.